am-i-darren

It is 430am now and I am wide awake.

Why?

Cause I slept at 4am last night and woke up at 545pm today.

Why?

Being the indecisive me, I bought the ticket to the year end apartment party and went for it.

I did not regret doing it cause I had fun. Real fun. It was a party for people that are living at the apartment. The theme was to dressed up as anything starting with the letter "P".  I dressed up as a  ping pong player and went to the party in shorts. Imagine that. There was people there dressed as a male prostitute, porn star, purple football player(shingo), pink fairy(shana), penis, pilot, paramedic, priest, Pires, princess, pirate and so on.

Anyway I think none of you can really imagine it but I will post up pics when I get them off from the others. I danced, make a handful of friends, seen the wacky and funny sides of people on dance floors and most important of all enjoyed myself. One of my friend(Tomo) was real drunk and I have to send her home. She was talking nonsense all the way. Really crack me up though. After reaching back, I changed and went out again with a japanese friend(Yuka) to rejoin the party people in a pub in the harbour. Continued drinking and I didn’t get drunk this time. But it is good training and a good time.

…I don’t know what to do now. Waiting for the game to start on SKY TV featuring Man Utd against Middlesbrough. I just felt a little sad just now as the year is coming to an end. Lots of friends that I met over the year is going home. Leaving the country for good. Just as you are getting comfortable everyone is leaving. *cries*

It is 4.43am now…few more mins to the game and hopefully I can wake up for soccer at 11am. Adios

1) fickle minded

there is this end year party at my apartment and I’m deciding whether to go or not. Since it is my last year why not right? But it cost $30 for hotel buffet food. I feel like going but the other part in me is asking me to save up.

Vywen just asked me to go for dinner and I agreed and now I turned her down.

Chloe has a birthday dinner and I also turn her down. Feel bad though. I really want to save up.

Sigh…running out of money…

And everytime I say I don’t want to do something, I end up doing it as well. I can’t make up my mind and I have a problem saying no. Everything also I say "Yes". I can’t control myself.

2) playful

being single is pretty good but I want to settle down with a girl that I can share everything with. But in the same time I want to have fun and get to know lots and lots of pretty girls. Lol. I don’t want to go wild anymore, looking at girls all the time and trying to know them. I don’t really want to be with them but I just want to be friends. I don’t know what I want(see I’m so fickle again). ARghh!! my friends here are starting to call me PIMP because I am with lots of girls most of the time and talking bout girls all the time. I guess I am still not ready for a relationship. I guess this is apart of knowing myself better.

3) lazy

end of semester already, and everything is ending soon. I need to study ! study ! and do my assignments !! I need someone to push me ler. See if I have a girlfriend she will give me more motivation. Push me abit or threaten not to kiss me if I don’t do work. "Konon ler"

4) itchy

I’m having a rash now due to yesterday’s drinking session. But it is under control. I have learned how not to scratch and let it bother me anymore. Why isn’t it going away yet. My bros and sis have the same problem but all of them got over it by drinking more. I guess I’m not drinking enough. Should get more training.

5) horny

just kidding. But you guys will say that I’m horny 24/7. I guess you guys know me too well.

6) random

went for a run in the domain. Explore the domain alone. Ran around the parks, jungle tracks and back. It was such a beautiful day and I decided not to waste it staying indoors. Officially I can say that my mood is controlled by the weather. Sunshine + Clear sky = Happy Darren.

7) hungry

Havent eat anything yet…oh my god now only I remembered. I only had some peanuts. Gosh…I better go eat something before I faint.

Happy Birthday to Chloe and Yen Ling! Hope you guys have a wonderful 20th birthday! Cute leh both of them.

Enough…my stomach is growling. I’m so hungry!

As I’m typing this, my head is feeling heavy and i feel like floating. As I walk around I feel the ground is shaking.

I can say this is my first time getting tipsy and I do feel good. LOL.

I just got back from the uni bar not long ago with Shingo and Ezra. They both forced me to drink or in other words "trained" me to drink.

I am feeling really relaxed and high right now. A good feeling. I’m not shy to talk to people and I can’t really construct sentences when talking to ppl. Brain laggin….hehehe

If there is typo or errors in this entry I apologize..cause I am high now.

For those haven’t been high before, you should try it. This is my first time but it is a good one. Of course don’t drink until you vomit and all. Just high is good enough and not all the time. Once in awhile…moderate lar…

I am going to go to bed soon ..class at 9am..hopefully i will wake up. LOL

Tata!!

Benjamin benjamun, benjamin makan timun. Wanna wish you Happy 21st Birthday Man! Take care man…soccer bila? waiting man..

Deepest condolence to our PM and family. May her soul rest in peace.

For story go to thestar.com.my

How come when something bad happens in a relationship, two people that love each other so much could turn against each other so quickly?

Why love can turn into hate in just seconds? Is it really hate by the way?

Why do you say such mean things to hurt each other? Things that will hurt yourself as well by just saying it?

Sorry sometimes is just not enough to turn things back around. Not enough, not even close.

I want you to go through the same thing that I have gone through.To feel the pain and suffering. To go to bed with uncertainty and cry yourself to sleep.

Why can’t you just forgive and start all over again? It is not that easy. It is not the same.

The trust is gone. The hate is there.

You say you try, you say you will, but deep inside you want revenge.

Why give up on each other so easily? After so much we have been through? Isn’t it worth fighting for? Don’t you want us to be together?

I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know what I want, I don’t know what I feel, I don’t know anymore.

You have changed. You’re not the same. Thanks to you I’m not the person I used to be.

I don’t know.I don’t care. But I love you.

I have been there and I have been that person. I guess it is just human and it is just how love or life works. But somethings are worth fighting for. Don’t give up that easily on the ones you love, no matter what. Hate all you want, but somethings are worth more than that. Forgive, forget, start all over and learn to love again. It is not easy but try your best. Nothing is impossible.

Thank you for not giving up on me. You made me a better person and I love you.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

That feels much better. I am so lazy!! Everything seems to be on hold. I have no mood for anything except soccer or hanging out with friends.

I have no mood for group works, group meetings, 2000 word essays and also video-ing stuffs.

I have no fucking drive anymore. No more motivation! Anything that is about uni, I lose interest. I rather do other stuffs than uni stuffs.

SO because I was so lazy to finish up my stuff for tomorrow’s small presentation in class, I decided to watch One Tree Hill. To those in NZ, not the hill/park, it is the tv drama series.

The third season is already here and I have downloaded the latest season. Episode 1 and 2. God..I really love One Tree Hill. The stories are so good, it relates to life and human behaviour. Things that goes thru your head and mine. I prefer OTH so much than OC. OC is nice but it is just so superficial. But what tv drama series isn’t? Anyway, in the latest season on OTH, everyone has a new haircut. Brooke looks so cute with the fringe and Peyton looks so much sweeter with short hair. Episode 2 is waiting for me but I shall be a good boy and work on my presentation.

I realized that I like to work under pressure. That means last minute work. I worry about my assignments the whole week and only decide to work on it today.

On the other hand, I had my weekly dosage of soccer. Played outdoors on Saturday and indoors on Sunday. Had lots of fun and my entire body is aching now. Feeling sleepy too now….But NO I CAN’T SLEEP! Will do my work after blogging.

Not much updates practically. Same old, same old. Assignments are due soon, semester is ending, looking for jobs, looking for girlfriend, looking at myself and bla bla bla …. gila liao.

Enough.

Thanks for the concern people but I am getting better!

See all patched up by the doctor today.

The doctor look at my infection and said he have to cut a little opening so that the white stuff flow out.(I don’t know how to freaking spell it, will called it white gooey stuff)

One thing I have to say, that the doctor so F**k lar, I’m already in pain and he needs to be so rough. Rub some cold stuff so roughly and then cut open. The cutting is fine but when he presses the white gooey stuff, he has do it so hard! Like trying to press gold out of it. My eyes were teary already man..then halfway he passes the job to the nurse. The nurse was so much nicer and gentle. When she presses it, I was so relaxed even I’m in a lil pain. Unlike the doctor, my body was so tensed.

Anyway enough of being a wuss again, but I got a lil confession to make. I skipped my class this morning and planned to skip the evening one as well using the reason that my face was infected.

The reason is because:

1) I didn’t want to attend the morning class is because I’m so sick and tired of the group work. No progress and I have no more motitvation in it anymore. Addition to that, me including the other two members can’t stand the leader anymore. He steps on everyone’s nerves..everyone is soon to explode.

2) I was so lazy in the mid semester break, I hardly did anything for one of my subjects and I asked for an extension from my lecturer using the infection reason. He agreed and I have till next week to finish it.

So now I feel better letting it out, but I swear it is only for this time and this time only. I’m not going to procrastinate anymore. Will finish it as soon as possible.

Anyway I want to share a couple of pictures from my mates birthday!

Shingo is one of my good buddies and also my football kaki. I tell you, his legs are as fast as Ronaldinho and as flexible as ever. You can ask the others..everytime play with him sure got some new skills will appear wan..and you just stand there and like…WAAHHH…

anyway can see the bottom left pic? The two girls in the middle think that I’m cute..hehehh I tak malu man…I so happy !!!! LOL ..finally..ppl realized I’m leng chai…actually not really lar..but i guess adorable is good enough.

The pic above is the birthday of my friend, Crystal! We had lotsa fun on that day. We went to mission bay to hang out, play some soccer, eat fish and chips and ate the famous ice cream Movenpick. It was real fun although the weather was not that good. It drizzled but it didn’t stop us. We kept on playing soccer and there were many many funny moments. Everyone kept sliding and falling on their butts as the grass was wet. At night we went to BBQ KING(my favourite place) to have a delicious dinner and ended the night with a korean love story movie. The prequel of My Sassy Girl. But it wasn’t as good as the first. I recommend this film to everyone….damn nice….

-out-

First from netball, a little swollen and secondly sliced my finger when cooking lunch on the same finger. Stupid knife lar! the bergigi wan somemore…sorry i sound like abit like a wuss but I just want someone to sayang me only….

Played netball for the first time today. I must say it is a nice game but ithe pace is just too fast. I thought my stamina had improve but I was wrong. I was like dying already. Respect for those who played for Bersatu games.

Jun bin just asked me why I am not feeling nervous or excited about my assignment that is due tomorrow? 1800 words and I am still blogging and chatting with him….why why? I told him I have no motivation anymore…Maybe this is my last sem and I want to fail so I keep studying. Hell no…I mean uni and college life is damn fun I must say but can I just have the fun and exclude the study part?
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Infection near my left ear…told you not to scroll down if you can’t take it.

Hope you aren’t eating something…back to assignments..

ahhhh…what a satisfying supper…nothing but good old indo mee with two sausages..

just pushed away my assignment and decided to blog abit before returning to my beloved waiting assignments..

hehehe

anyway went for UMSA AGM today and guess what ? I got nominated for a post and I got it. yay…nothing fancy but I’m a web officer. Incharge of all the web stuff that is to do with the club.

here is the current website anyway: www.umsa.tk

the rest of the newly elected committee are:

Prez: David Liu
VP: Yi Xin
Sec: Mei
Tre: Zaf
Social Officers: Caleb and Ian
Asia Rep: Sean
Sports: Jeremy
Web Officer: Darren
Photographer: Christine
Editor: Matthew
Cultural Officer & AUT Rep: Yean
Comm Officer: Celest

I hope i got everything right anyway …a few new people so I don’t know how to spell their names…hehehe but I guess it would be fun..

Enough now back to my assignments…and hopefully can wake up for some sports tomorrow…