am-i-darren

Brrrr…..finally after around 5 days of rain, the sun has finally decided to come out and play. Even with the sun, it is still cold. It didn’t get this cold so early last year.

Although the weather is cold, it did not stop me from doing stuff. Last Saturday, a bunch of us actually played soccer in the rain under this cold condition. I felt like I was playing in some English Premier League game or something because when we breathe there was so much vapour.

Then on Sunday I played more games but thank god it was indoors. Played netball against the girl’s team that will be representing UMSA for Bersatu Games in Otago in this coming July. It was fun and I must say the girls are no pushovers. They were tough. I receive some good hard knocks and elbows on my face…hehehe but it was all good and in the name of the game. Hurt my thumb though when I was the goalkeeper. The ball hit my thumb awkwardly. A little swollen but will be seeing the physio tomorrow.

So far, I still have my job. It does look promising. Eddie(supervisor) is giving me lots of things to do and he even asked me to see him do some video editting. He says hopefully I could learn the new software and do some basic editting. I guess he might be training me to become a fulltime employee? I wish but one step at a time for me. =)

One thing I don’t like bout my workspace is I sit beside a window. Which is great actually but the weather is so cold now. Cold air seeps through the window and my hands are freezing. I even wore gloves yesterday while doing my work. The funny thing is, everyone else workspace has a heater above them. But where is mine? Brrrr….

Anyway..got to get back to work now…hheheheh

Remember to put on warmer clothes and jackets before leaving the house! Don’t be caught out by the cold weather like me. It has already been two days for me. Shivering while walking to and back from work.

Take care and have a lovely day!

Honestly haven’t done this kind of stuff before…hehe got tagged by Audrey sayang..hehe

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. darren
2. tai lan
3. dee

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. my sexy mole

2. size..would like to be a lil taller though

3. hair

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. short
2. too thin
3. forehead

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. chinese
2. chinese
3. chinese

THREE THINGS YOU CAN’T STAND:

1. ppl who talk big

2. ppl who look down on others
3. ppl who make others suffer

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. death of loved ones
2. bungy
3. aliens….i mean the show ALIENS 1, 2, 3 ,4 ..give me nightmares man..worst then ghosts..

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:

1. lost
2. one tree hill
3. everybody hates chris

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESE ANIMES:

1. bleach
2. naruto
3. spirited away

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:

1. Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers
2. Simple as it should be - Tristan Prettyman
3. Dance Dance - Fallout Boys

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:

1. Matrix
2. Last Samurai
3. Stephen Chow’s movies

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:

1. Da Vinci Code
2. X-Men 3
3. King Kong

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. mobile
2. music
3. computer

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1. old sleeping t-shirt
2. shorts
3. panties underwear

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

1. fun
2. humour
3. trust

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. eyes
2. smile
3. body

THREE BAD HABITS:

1. Twirl my hair
2. Procrastinate
3. Not speaking up

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1. sports
2. hanging out with friends
3. sitting in front of my comp for hours….online,anime,tvshows,chat lar..

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1. figure out how the hell to make the flash button work

2. watch lost episode 221

3. supper

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:

1. Multimedia Designer
2. Video Editor
3. Coffee shop owner

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

1. Europe
2. USA
3. Japan, Korea, HK, China….sorry i got lots of place i want to go to..

THREE KIDS’ NAMES YOU LIKE:

1. Pharell
2. Lucas
3. Mattheus

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Travel the world
2. Fall in love
3. Spend quality time with family and friends

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GUY: (Or girl)

1. I talk about girls?
2. I like to look at girls?
3. I talk about sports?

INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES:
1. Some girl from college..cant remember her name now..
2. Can’t think of any
3. Mostly I like the girl wan …no crushes ler.. dont know the diff lar..

THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:

1. David Liu
2. Jasemaine
3. Lih Xiang

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

"Rain - Breaking Benjamin"

All I want and look forward to on weekends is to spend time with friends playing soccer, having fun and just having a good laugh.

WHY?! WHY?!! Is it too much I’m asking from you?

Mr. Sun please come out and play with me.

Auckland is getting colder, wetter and suckier with this weather. *cries* *sighs*

Ahhhh…woke up at about 920am today and called up the office. Eddie, the person that is incharge/working with me called me back at 1030am and let me know that I don’t need to come in today. Let me know earlier lar..so i can resume my sleep. But anyway I feel good. No work for me today = no money. But I got the whole day to waste resting and doing my stuff. If the weather was better then it would be perfect. It’s getting real cold now…brrrr…

I am practically living day by day these days. Not knowing what tomorrow brings. That is how I feel with a freelance job. But so far so good. No complains really as long the money is coming in. Should I stay on or should I stayback? Does she knows?(david) Questions,questions. But I am happy living like this in a way. Not knowing what life is going to throw at you. Just living life step by step. It excites me. I don’t know how some people have their life all sorted out already. I’m only going to be 22 this year and I don’t even have a proper job. But what I know is I have great friends and family. Truthfully, sometimes that is all you really need. That is more than enough and the rest will fall in place sooner or later.

Off topic abit, I am sick and tired of coward balless bitches wanker mother fuckers who likes to leave offensive and hurtful comments on chatboxes, blogs and then go fucking hide and put their names under anonymous. If you are unhappy about something, own up and go talk to that person. Don’t be a fucking coward and blast the person and then run for cover. What is the fucking point? MIGHT AS WELL SHUT THE FUCK UP. I’m sick of seeing all these childish behaviours.

Person1: I don’t like u.
Person2: I don’t like u too.
Person1: I don’t like u three.
Person2: I don’t like u infinity.
and believe me it goes on….

WHAT THE FUCK?! Stop it. Anyway it is pointless. Grow the fuck up. What I have learn in life is you can’t stop people from thinking and saying stuff. They can talk and bitch whatever the want. But why u give a fuck about them? I know in someways you can’t help thinking about it but why in the world you have to care and live up to their expectations? You are you. They are the losers. Human make mistakes and we learn from those mistakes. Everyone goes thru that. So have I. For those losers out there, I have some advice for you:

1) Never judge others. Try putting yourself in the other person’s shoes and experience what shit he/she gets instead. Then you know.

2) Go wank off and fuck yourself.

……….. okie that is enough I think. Sorry for the 18++/parental advisory language. Nothing happened to me but it is the things that happened to my friends. One is UMSA(someone always shooting at the club) and the other is a close friend of mine, Yen Ling. Just don’t bother wasting time on these mother fuckers people.

by the way it is already been almost a year my blog is up. My first entry was for mommy! and when I was waiting for the call from Eddie I took a quiz from David’s blog.

Your type is the bad girl

No
prim and proper sort for you. You like your women a bit jaded and
experienced; in a word - bad. When you watch "Grease," you’re the type
who roots for Rizzo, not Sandy (at least, not until she puts on those
hot pants and grabs that cigarette). Your ideal girl has been there and
done that, and she’s not afraid of motorcycles. She stays out late,
loves to party, and will never say no to a good time. Quite the
risk-taker yourself, you want a woman who can equal your sense of
adventure and spontaneity. She’s tough on the outside, but she’ll melt
around the right bloke. That suits you just fine - you don’t want a
girl who needs high emotional maintenance. You’re looking for a
sharp-minded, rebellious partner who knows how to let loose. Grab the
next bad girl you meet and let her bring out your wild side.

HAVE A LOVELY DAY! LOVE YAH!

Started my freelance job yesterday. It was not bad. I was given things that I’ve never done before. End up I was researching and experimenting with it. The job is a lil tiring on the eyes as you sit in front of the computer for hours. But you get paid just experimenting, reading tutorials and trying to solve things.

My window seat at the office on the first day of my job.

I hope the employer don’t think that I am a slow worker though. But there isn’t anyone else in the office who can do it. I mean I guess they don’t want to hire a professional that cost them around $60 an hour to do the work when they can use me as cheap labour? It is a good learning experience as well.

So let me see…last night was supposedly the historic day that will only happen once…

1.02.03am - 04/05/06

which I was just talking to friends online and experiementing on my work..

here was what one of my friends wrote…she just got it suddenly from her head…nice though

"i stood in front of her and all i could say was a simple hi. then again i wasn’t even sure if d words left my mouth coz the moment i blinked she was walking away…" by Zaf

It’s been a while since I’ve blog. Mmmm let me see…

Lets start about my job search.

I got a job as a freelancer for this ad agency, Omnicron. Honestly I was pretty lucky to get the chance to work for them. I was searching thru yellowpages and just decided to try applying with them. I guess it was luck + right timing. Anyway this company is sort of hiring me as a freelancer to work on a software with another guy. If I do well in this first job, I’ll either get more jobs or they will hire me as a permanent staff. So this is a trial for me.

Okay boring stuff aside now…

Last Monday till Wednesday, I took a short trip up North with Zaf, Yin, Tee and Indah for a holiday. We hired a car and drove up all the way to the northest part of New Zealand. Here are pics of our journey.

First stop. Whangarei Falls. Got to have a little break after driving. We had our lunch here.

I got a little thirsty and drank some water right from the falls.

The weather wasn’t that good, so we headed down to Paihia to check in at the Backpackers which we stayed for both nights. Eventhough it was raining we did not waste time and we headed down to KeriKeri. We visited some historic places. We visited The Mission House. The house is one of the oldest in NZ which was built somewhere in the early 1800’s.

It was a pretty cool place to visit as you can see how the people back then lived. The house was indeed spooky and my friend Indah has to ask the guide whether the house is haunted. And to add to that, the tour guide said that the upper part of the house is haunted. There are people that felt the presence of others. After hearing that, I was not walking alone anymore in the house. There was another incident that happened. After just touring the house for a short moment, Tee kept on saying that there was nothing much to see and sort of rushed us around. I was like puzzled. Why is he hurrying us around when we just entered the place? My conclusion was either he is having a stomach ache or he sense something in the house. To my suprise, after we came back from the trip, he only let us know that he sensed that there was 4 strong spirits or something in the house and feared for our safety. I was like so freaked out…..thank god he didn’t tell us then. If not I would have been the first to be out of the house. Lol.

On the second day, we woke up pretty early and drove our sleepy asses up north. Along the way, we made many stops for photograph sessions.

Having my breakfast.

Random stops along the way. Ain’t it beautiful?

Few of my favourite pics. Look like some dvd cover teen series kind of thing.

Next stop was 90 Mile Beach. Yes the beach is that long. To get to the northest part of NZ, you will not miss this beach. Look at the two of them. Picture semangat…get in car, terus tidur..

It is not complete without some poser pics. This pics are the pics that makes you laugh when you look back at it.

That is how far north we were heading.

After driving thru endless gravel road, we finally reached the northest part of NZ, Cape Reinga. This is as far as you can go before you swim to Australia. At this same place, you can see the Pacific Ocean and the Tasman Sea meet. Cool huh?!

Us being crazy again.

After that we headed back to Paihia for our second night stay. The drive back was madness.

On the third day, we decided to take a tour instead of driving around. We took the cruise that brings you to see dolphins and also the famous Hole in the Rock.

The only lucky picture that I took of the dolphin.

Hole in the rock. It is created from the strong current, winds and bla bla..u know lar…

After completing the cruise, the cruise dropped us in Russell. We visited some historic places and was able to witness how books are done in the olden days. I tell you, it is lots of hassle.

Trying to be cute…

Our very own version of how asian like to pose with numbers.

Opportunity shop? I think Tee has his own ideas of a opportunity shop. Taking opportunity maybe? Just look at him…

We even visited a church.

Not happy we that, we took the ferry back to Paihia.

and then visited another church. =P

Until we all gone crazy. I mean the crazy good.

I don’t know why the more I work at the salad place, the more I want to quit and the more I want to go back Malaysia.

I was so eager to quit before this but now, I made up my mind to stay on until I really, really get a proper job. Thought it thru after a slow walk today around city doing my stuff after work. Work also not enough hours since the biz is so bad that I have to end early. Sigh…I cannot be so irresponsible. Feel like quitting, then just quit. CANNOT! Then ask money from mommy again? Cannot, cannot. Who going to pay rent? Defeat the purpose why I wanna try to stay on.

Hate today’s weather. Bloody wet. Bloody rained the whole fucking day. Make me moody only. Pity those at camp though.(ocf,charity & etc camps) It gets real dark real fast as well. 6pm also already dark. Grrrrr…Emo already!

Job Update

Anyway at least there were some replies from the companies I have "attacked"!

www.yukfoo.net

www.visualnz.com - Requested me to show them my work

www.freshmedia.co.nz

www.terabyte.co.nz

www.oktobor.com

www.speckled-hen-design.com - No Vacancy

www.phosphor.co.nz

www.omnicron.conz - Asked me whether I am still interested in the multimedia job? HELL YEAH! I have replied..so waiting also.

www.p10.co.nz

www.terabyte.co.nz

www.digitalriver.co.nz

www.bunkermedia.co.nz

As for the others, no news yet. So hopefully…will hear from them soon.

Plans for Now

1) Get a job

2) Next week go up North for short holiday.

3) Want to go to Tauranga, Waitomo Caves, Piha Beach…anymore nice places?

4) July go South Island

5) Still no job, go back Malaysia and finally return to my beloved family and friends!! Damn I miss you guys.

Nice pic of me and bro.

Not so nice pic of me and bro. LOL.

Have a nice day!

www.yukfoo.net

www.visualnz.com

www.freshmedia.co.nz

www.terabyte.co.nz

www.oktobor.com

www.speckled-hen-design.com

www.phosphor.co.nz

www.omnicron.conz

www.p10.co.nz

www.terabyte.co.nz

www.digitalriver.co.nz

www.bunkermedia.co.nz

That is the list of companies that I am going to attack with my CV. And in the process hoping for my CV to be shortlisted by AUT, waiting for this video production company to get back to me about a position and also interview and waiting for a friend to let me know about a freelance job. Good news are slim but I’m not giving up. Thank you for the encouragements! In the freaking mood to send out CVs and not just complain on and on about my current job. It is now or never! Pray for me.

I’m wide awake at 4am. DAmn…

I played badminton today from 11-1pm then lunch, then soccer from 330- 6pm, then dinner, then shower then slept while watching anime. Got woke up by a sms by my ex housemate, Rebecca. Asking why did I leave the msn conversation. I was sleeping and I wasn’t having a conversation with her at all. She said I was talking to her thru msn and I also talked to her housemate and I said that I loved her. Was it a prank or was I sleep walking? Anyway dying to sleep now…got soccer in the morning…

Oh just wanted to recommend this new song by Tristan Prettyman - Simple as it should be.

Put your hands to my handsPut your knees to my kneesPut your eyes to my eyesCome on baby compliment me

Cause I don’t think that weShould ever feel the need to worryEver get ourselves in a hurryYou know I love youI know you love me

So time will goAnd we may beFar apart I knowBut as far as I can seeThis is so goodThere’s no need for changeIt’s alright with meIt’s as simple as it should beSimple as it should be

And this love will buildThrough flights and streetsIn the end I predictYou’ll get the very best of me

So put your lips to my lipsWhy not go on and take all of itAnd just run as fast as you canJust cause you can

Cause time will goAnd we may beFar apart I knowBut as far as I can seeThis is so goodThere’s no need for changeIt’s alright with meIt’s as simple as it should beSimple as it should be

I am almost 23Confused with all the lines in betweenThey are dying to be readSoftly spoken simply said

Tell me do you believeIn the girl that is meWith her feet to your feetWell that’s all that I need

Cause time will goAnd we may beFar apart I knowBut as far as I can seeThis is so goodThere’s no need for changeIt’s alright with meIt’s as simple as it should beSimple as it should be

Alright will try to get back to bed. Damn…hungry now…Goodnite everyone! =)

Hi Darren,

Thanks for coming in yesterday to meet with me and submitting a draft piece of artwork a little earlier in the piece.

Unfortunately your application has been unsuccessful at this time; however we thoroughly appreciate your involvement.

I wish you all the best with your career.

RegardsPaul Ballantyne

Sigh….another interview unsuccesful. Damn. I getting tired of it already. Not as in tired of looking for jobs and getting rejected but tired of working in the salad place lar. No job satisfaction at all. No increase pay, do so much somemore. To add on, next week is easter. Uni holidays starting and I will be working my ass off while all my other friends are on holiday. SIghhhhhh…I guess that is the price you pay for graduating. No more fun but more responsibilities. I wanna have fun too, but if I take day off, who is going to support me?

Sigh…sigh…sigh…

Why am I still doing here? At this rate, I’m surely going back Malaysia. Don’t get me wrong, I love to return home to my friends and family. Miss them so god damn much. But I want to get experience, earn my own money, get a girl, buy a car, travel and all. HEehehe…I guess I’ve been dreaming too much. I guess things don’t always go the way you want it. That is life. But all is said, I am never happier with my life. Feel so free, so big(like adult lar..), so carefree…

Back to my work now…oh at least I got some freelance job from the past interviewer. He is darn nice. Gave the job to me. =)